Too Much of a Good Thing

So, sadly I weighed in this morning at 255.  That's right I have managed to gain 3 lbs this week.  Not at all the direction I was wanting to head.  I know that I really slacked off this week with Houston and Jenny both celebrating a birthday and the regular just before school starts stuff.  Still, I can't believe I actually gained!  I kept justifying that I was moving enough to eat what I wanted.  Obviously not.  I am so disappointed and will have to work extra hard next week to overcome the bad job I did this week.

Mr. Baby Need A New Name

Mr. Baby AKA Houston turned 2 today.  Well yesterday since it's after midnight, lol.  He had such a full day.  We spent 5 hours at the zoo.  He got to see all his favorite animals and even the lions cooperated.  We did have rough spot when he took a tumble and gashed his forehead.  It bled so much but stopped quickly and he was back to normal in no time.  After the zoo, we took him to eat where he opened his gift, his very own baby doll!  He had a cotton candy nearly as big as his head for dessert.  It was so funny when he tried to throw it away because of course, it stuck to his fingers and refused to budge, lol.  All and all it was great, but I realized he's going to need a new nickname soon.  At 2, I can't imagine he's going to stand for being called a baby much longer.  What's a mommy to do?

I Know Why It's Called DIEting

I am so sick of watching what I eat!  I never imagined it could be this hard.  My body keeps sending out all the wrong signals and that is so frustrating.  Last night, I ate reasonable portion sizes, chewed many, many times, and ate slowly.  As everyone else was finishing dinner, my stomach was growling like I hadn't eaten in days.  I am counting calories so I know I had enough to eat yesterday but I still feel so hungry most of the time.  I have a whole new respect for people who have lost large amounts of weight.  I mean we all hear no pain, no gain but I never realized how painful it could be to lose!  I know that in the end it will all be worth it and that my kids will be less likely to have poor eating habits if they don't see them at home.  I know in the end it will all be worth it, but right now, I really question why I am putting myself through this!

Birthday Blowout

Today, my sweet Jenny turned 5!  Hard to believe she is so big already.  She had a really fun day since she got to decide pretty much the whole thing.  This morning she ate chocolate cereal and watched Pocahontas.  After a rest period, she had a whole banana split at Braum's chosen by her over birhtday cake.  Even with sharing it with her sisters and brother it still didn't get finished but they gave it a good try, lol.  We followed that with the Jasmine Moran Children's Museum where she dug for dinosaurs, build magnet sculptures, shopped, and repaired cars.  She finished the day with a burger, fries, corn on the cob, and more ice cream with chocolate sauce.  She got a Barbie as well.  By the time we got home she was wiped out!  Can't wait to see what changes the next year bring for her.

Weekly Weigh In

Today I weighed in at 252!  That means I am down 22 lbs from my beginning weight of 274.  I am really watching the calories and trying super hard to cut the bad habits.  I really do want to be healthy.  I have stayed below 1320 calories for the past 2 days and am doing great so far today.  I won't lie though.  Right now I am so hungry!  I still have 1066 calories left for today so I'm seriously thinking that a snack is in my future.  The tough part is finding healthy low calorie options in a house full of kids and candy! 

I know this will get easier as time goes on but right now it hurts.  I'm having a lot of trouble figuring out balance.  I tend to starve most of the day for fear I will run out of calories.  I'm sure that sounds so stupid.  Then, because I don't hardly eat all day, I consume all my remaining calories for dinner.  Way not the best method so I have to figure our a better way to get through the day under my count.  I know that with time, the balance will come easier but for now, it's a nightmare.