All of the sudden, I looked around and realized I have not written a post on here in more than a year! At first I was trying to figure out how that happened, but it only took a moment of reflection to see it clearly. The truth is almost nothing in my world is the same as it was the last time I wrote on this blog. So, though the names are the same, the people have changed significantly. I think with that in mind, the best thing to do is pretend this is post one and provide a brief introduction. I do plan to blog on a more regular basis from this point forward to help me document and reflect on my life as it is now and see all the changes that are to come.
Let's start with the basics. I am now 37 years old. Sometimes I am myself surprised to realize that this summer it will be 20 years since I graduated high school. Other times, it seems like that is a million years ago and the life of an entirely different person who I would barely recognize today. I love all things purple and I collect teddy bears.
I am a user of essential oils. I laughed at the oilers I knew. I was more than skeptical. I was determined to show others how nuts they were. Then, I tried them. They completely changed my life. I wish I had tried them much, much sooner.
I am plus size and as shocking as it may seem to some, I am not on a diet or exercise program to lose weight. I don't even have a scale in the house. See, I am a mother to girls. Girls who at 5 and 6 years old began to ask about being fat, eating too much, being too thin, and other trends that were honestly a little disturbing. It was at that point that I quit obsessing about my weight. My kids will all tell you they are just the right size for a person their size. That is a win in my book!
I am a homeschool mom. I have kids in grades PK, K, 3, 4, 6, and 9. I have my 6 plus 3 others that meet together to study and learn each week. My kids have tried public school, more than once, in more than one district. We have also tried virtual school or online public school. None of those fit the needs of my students. So, although it is hard, I know it is worth it to get my kids where they need to be.
I was chosen to be mommy to a spirit so perfect, she had nothing to learn on this Earth. My youngest and forever baby, Alexia Dawn was born sleeping 9/4/15 at 17 weeks 3 days. I miss her every single day and I think about her all the time. I held her and pictures were taken and I remember every detail of her tiny, perfect face. I built a shelf for her right outside my bedroom were the few things that were ever hers sit along with her obituary and urn so I can see her every day still. I know this is an uncomfortable topic, but I love her very much and she is my child just as much as her 6 older siblings. I say she is my youngest and forever baby not just because she won't grow any older, but also because there will never be another pregnancy for me.
So, that is me in a nutshell as it were. I plan to use this blog to share our journey of healing both physically and emotionally, our spiritual growth, our schooling triumphs, our lives as they are now. Feel free to join me on this adventure in learning to find our new normal and more.
