Wow, I can hardly believe how long it has been since I wrote on here. So many things have changed since my last post. Of course, not everything has changed. Let's get an update going, shall we?
My knee still hurts all the time. I have pretty well accepted it is permanent and made modifications in my life to compensate. I'm still a plus size mom. Not really that big of a surprise either as I have been plus size since Jr High more than 25 years ago. I have made some dietary modifications. The gaining has stopped and the scale has come down some, but more importantly, I am comfortable with who I am. That is so critical and I wish it hadn't taken me the better part of 36 years to figure it out. You know what made the biggest impact? I stopped weighing. Really, completely stopped. I quit berating myself over every ounce. I stopped waiting until I was that "goal" size to buy clothes that fit and made me happy. I wear what I like at my size and it really has helped change my attitude about the whole process.
I still have six little ones running around everywhere. The oldest has reached 9 and the youngest is 18 months. Before anyone asks if I am done, I still don't know. I trust that Heavenly Father will guide me in this. When my youngest was born, my OB said I was fine to have more. I don't actively try to become pregnant or to avoid it. If I am supposed to have more, I will. If not, I won't. Simple.
This has encouraged me to ever strive to be a better parent to my children. I won't lie, I'm still far from perfect, some days so far from it I can barely see there has been progress. Still, I keep trying. Until I stop, I haven't failed no matter how many set backs there have been.
All of the kids that are old enough are in public school this year. It allows me time to focus and spend time with the little ones individually. It also lets me focus more on enjoying time with the kids in general and not always focusing on curriculum and progress. It was a difficult decision to make, but I really feel it was the right one.
And, I am working some. I have started doing some freelance writing and research which I am enjoying immensely. It has encouraged me to write again for me as well as for work. I hadn't realized how much I missed it until I started doing it again. So, hopefully, this will be the first posting of much more regular writing.
Anyway, I have so many things to do today and so many memories to make while they are still little. I leave you for now praying for peace and blessings for you and yours.
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